This has happened to me several times in my life: right before I go through a big change (like starting high school, moving out to go to college, etc.), I get excited for my life to be completely different. I expect awesome changes to fall into my lap.
I’m doing it again pretty soon. Undergoing a major change, that is. And this time, I’ll wait no more for changes to fall into my lap. From now until when that change happens, I’m working my butt off, to get ready. There are so many things about myself that I want to change, but as of now, I’ve done almost nothing to bring about those changes.
- I am severely uneducated on current issues and events around the world. I don’t read or watch the news, and when I browse the internet, it’s not CNN or the New York Times. I want to be able to truly participate in conversations about immigration, and I want to have an actual opinion about gun control. I’m going start paying more attention to what’s going on around the world, and in our country.
- I should really exercise. I used to have workouts schedules, because I did it for a team or a class. But now, with without a solid, inescapable reason to go all the way to the gym, I just don’t. I can feel my health declining. I hate feeling this way. Enough. I’m going to go to the gym regularly.
- Look for the amazing potential in the people around me. I’ve always heard people talk about how important it is to surround yourself with people who you want to be like, and who inspire you to be better, and who see the greatness that you are. I completely agree with this, but then at the same time, doesn’t everyone on the whole planet have something to offer? Doesn’t everyone have something I can learn from them? I believe that. I believe that every single person we ever come into contact with could teach us something wonderful. When I think about the people who I don’t particularly like, or don’t respect or look up to, people who I would never think of as a role model, I realize that, even with them, there is always something that I admire. There is always something about them that I appreciate, and wish I could have as a characteristic of my own. SO, rather than surrounding myself only with people who I think are amazing (which is probably impossible, so I’d really just be setting myself up to be unhappy, unsatisfied, and annoyed), I should really just look at the amazing qualities of the people around me. Everyone has so much potential to be amazing, and I ought to give them that chance, rather than be dissatisfied with them.
- I’ve never been in a relationship of any kind, never kissed anyone or even held hands. I think, maybe I just haven’t been open to love. I’m not good at it. I’ve heard of people making lists of their ideal match, their perfect man/woman, then looking at themselves, to make sure they are someone like whoever they’re looking for. So here goes: smart, funny, easy to talk to, outgoing, healthy, humble, truly caring, thoughtful and considerate, hard-working, loving. There’s more, I’m sure, but I see enough already on that list that I need to work on for myself. Being all those things will probably build my confidence, which is always good. But mostly, I think I just need to be open to love and happiness.
Well, there it is. I’ve got a couple of months to get started on these before my next big change, which will give me a start-over :) I’m done waiting for changes to just fall into my lap.